I quit my movie theatre job. I'll be gone by the 18th. I wanted to stay. I did like my job, but it wouldn't work out, because I GOT THE OTHER JOB! the 20 bucks an hour in lieu of benefits secretary position! So I'll be working full time now from 8:30-4:30 Mon-Fri at possibly different offices around Vancouver and the Lower Mainland.
There might be a job possibility to help out at the CISV Village in Vancouver that would be $10 an hour and full-time as well this summer. That would be awesome, but CISV tends to not work out for me, so who knows.
I went to a CWY meeting. IT SOUNDS AMAZING! But I can't go this year because of the job. So I'll go next year if it all works out again. It's disappointing, but this job is a life-changer.
I found an AMAZING opportunity! Pearson Seminar. I re-discovered it through a guy at CWY who knew a girl in my CISV chapter who went to the seminar with him last year and whose sister was my camp counselor at a summer camp I went to when I was about 10! I feel like I was destined to go to Pearson Seminar and I want to do it so bad! This is my last year and that guy is the facilitator.. But I can't because of this job. I also don't know if I can go to National Camp or the Collectively Canadian camp, because if I miss 4 days of work I'm fired. between now and the end of September and the October to the end of March.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
What?
I like thinking that there is a greater purpose out there for me and all my actions are destined to happen. I like to think that I have no control and what should happen will happen. I live my life with the feeling that it's okay if things go wrong or turn out differently then I'd hoped, because that's the way it was supposed to be. I would hate living through life believing that I have control of everything and if I make a wrong decision it will mess up my life.
However, I hate when I have to wait for OTHERS to decide things for ME. Such as if I'm getting a job or if I get to be part of an organization or if there's still room for me to do something. That time period is the worst. I want to know whether it's yes or no, so I can plan accordingly.
Recent examples would be; the job one as a big one, the norway thing and interchange for CISV, Collectively Canadian, National Camp, so many more. This happens all the time, especially now that I have to apply to things like college. Luckily I didn't have to wait for that to reply. I knew I was going to Douglas in September and was accepted in October with no doubt ever in my mind.
However, I hate when I have to wait for OTHERS to decide things for ME. Such as if I'm getting a job or if I get to be part of an organization or if there's still room for me to do something. That time period is the worst. I want to know whether it's yes or no, so I can plan accordingly.
Recent examples would be; the job one as a big one, the norway thing and interchange for CISV, Collectively Canadian, National Camp, so many more. This happens all the time, especially now that I have to apply to things like college. Luckily I didn't have to wait for that to reply. I knew I was going to Douglas in September and was accepted in October with no doubt ever in my mind.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Irony
"Well for once the rich white man is in power." -Mr. Burns (The Simpsons)
Today I saw a building that said 'Open 24/7.' It was closed and down for construction.
I love irony.
~not ironic, but --
"Black! That's the worst colour there is. No offense Karl." -Lenny
"Don't worry. I get it all the time." -Karl
Today I saw a building that said 'Open 24/7.' It was closed and down for construction.
I love irony.
~not ironic, but --
"Black! That's the worst colour there is. No offense Karl." -Lenny
"Don't worry. I get it all the time." -Karl
Monday, April 4, 2011
Lost in Your World
Wherever you grow up and things you learn and know.. everything seems to be how it is. It makes sense and you understand it, for the most part. Walking only when the light tells us to. Stopping at the stop sign. Red, yellow, green: go. Going to school. Doing what you're told, unless you don't want to. The legal drinking age vs. the age when people drink. Laundry machines, laptops, microwaves, fridges, radios, nintendo, toilets, toilet paper.
Brutal mutilation of female genitals, men in charge, slaves, hierarchies, kidnappings, shootings, bathing in a river, walking.. everywhere, working, AIDS, orphaned.
Or maybe not.
Crowded streets, pick-pockets, bargaining.
There are so many possibilities and obviously it is easier for me to think of what happens in my life and not in some other world that is only a sea away. Every place is so different and the way people live is what they're used to and it's just what is. Not everyone has internet or food or laptops or skytrains. And their lives aren't worse because of it; they're just different. They have their own way of living and their own hobbies. Collecting stamps or pennies is not something that you'd see an adult in a tiny village in Asia do.
I went to a CWY meeting the other day and the speaker had done cwy a few years ago. Her counterpart was the 'princess' of her village. She bossed the speaker around and treated her like a slave, because that's what she knew. She didn't know what a laundry machine was, nor how a toilet worked, but she felt that she was better and more important than anyone else.
Then other people are lower in their hierarchy and would be the opposite. Quiet, less educated, but still just as foreign to the concept of what we have here. Sure some places are 'better' and have 'nicer' things and whatever. I'm not trying to say that we're so great because we can do laundry without leaving the house.. I'm just thinking that it's so strange how we don't think about the lives of others very often or what they do or don't do, because we're so comfortable with our own. I couldn't even complete a list of things that other people have that we don't, because I don't know!
I went to driving classes during Spring Break and didn't learn much, but one thing that I found interesting was when the instructor drew a pie chart and put a dot on it and said "This dot represents what you know." and then he pointed to the rest of the circle and said "This is what you don't know." and then he drew the dot into a piece of the pie chart saying it was vastly enlarged.. so he could show us what was inside of it. He split it and wrote 'Things you know you know' in one half and 'Things you know you don't know' in the other. Then he wrote 'Things you don't know you don't know.' into the rest of the circle. Things you don't know you don't know is most knowledge in the entire world. We know NOTHING.
Just so you know.
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| One Eyeland Lost Astronaut. |
Or maybe not.
Crowded streets, pick-pockets, bargaining.
There are so many possibilities and obviously it is easier for me to think of what happens in my life and not in some other world that is only a sea away. Every place is so different and the way people live is what they're used to and it's just what is. Not everyone has internet or food or laptops or skytrains. And their lives aren't worse because of it; they're just different. They have their own way of living and their own hobbies. Collecting stamps or pennies is not something that you'd see an adult in a tiny village in Asia do.
I went to a CWY meeting the other day and the speaker had done cwy a few years ago. Her counterpart was the 'princess' of her village. She bossed the speaker around and treated her like a slave, because that's what she knew. She didn't know what a laundry machine was, nor how a toilet worked, but she felt that she was better and more important than anyone else.
Then other people are lower in their hierarchy and would be the opposite. Quiet, less educated, but still just as foreign to the concept of what we have here. Sure some places are 'better' and have 'nicer' things and whatever. I'm not trying to say that we're so great because we can do laundry without leaving the house.. I'm just thinking that it's so strange how we don't think about the lives of others very often or what they do or don't do, because we're so comfortable with our own. I couldn't even complete a list of things that other people have that we don't, because I don't know!
I went to driving classes during Spring Break and didn't learn much, but one thing that I found interesting was when the instructor drew a pie chart and put a dot on it and said "This dot represents what you know." and then he pointed to the rest of the circle and said "This is what you don't know." and then he drew the dot into a piece of the pie chart saying it was vastly enlarged.. so he could show us what was inside of it. He split it and wrote 'Things you know you know' in one half and 'Things you know you don't know' in the other. Then he wrote 'Things you don't know you don't know.' into the rest of the circle. Things you don't know you don't know is most knowledge in the entire world. We know NOTHING.
Just so you know.
The Unimaginable
I am creative. I can create stories in my head. The other day my friend/co-worker said something about a movie and I misheard her to say 'north' or something and in 2 seconds had come up with a possible storyline of a made-up movie that does not exist. So I can imagine things, yes.
However, I did not think it possible for me to have a good job at this age. I didn't bother applying for so many jobs and for so many scholarships and for so many opportunities because I KNEW that I would never get it, so what's the point, right?
right?
WRONG.
So my mom convinced me to apply for a job as office assistant at the ministry. It sounds amazing and like a wonderful opportunity and all I had to do was send her my resume. Then I got an interview. I was shocked, but figured they must just interview everyone. Then I got to the second stage and now I'm in a place that is unimaginable, by me at least. No, I do not have the job, but I may get it and even if I don't the fact that I wouldn't have even applied if the opportunity hadn't not only forced itself into my hands like an envelope but actually fluttered away and mailed itself. I still can't believe it and so even if I don't make it past this part of the process the fact that I came close is enough. It's amazing and unbelievable and incredible and what an eye-opener.
It's not like everything is settled even if I do get the job though. It's going to be hard and long hours and working with a lot of different types of people. I'm going to majorly have to step out of my comfort zone and will be thrown into a world that I'm not accustomed to and will be behind in, but I'm up for the challenge.
It reminds me of one of my favourite quotes:
However, I did not think it possible for me to have a good job at this age. I didn't bother applying for so many jobs and for so many scholarships and for so many opportunities because I KNEW that I would never get it, so what's the point, right?
right?
WRONG.
So my mom convinced me to apply for a job as office assistant at the ministry. It sounds amazing and like a wonderful opportunity and all I had to do was send her my resume. Then I got an interview. I was shocked, but figured they must just interview everyone. Then I got to the second stage and now I'm in a place that is unimaginable, by me at least. No, I do not have the job, but I may get it and even if I don't the fact that I wouldn't have even applied if the opportunity hadn't not only forced itself into my hands like an envelope but actually fluttered away and mailed itself. I still can't believe it and so even if I don't make it past this part of the process the fact that I came close is enough. It's amazing and unbelievable and incredible and what an eye-opener.
It's not like everything is settled even if I do get the job though. It's going to be hard and long hours and working with a lot of different types of people. I'm going to majorly have to step out of my comfort zone and will be thrown into a world that I'm not accustomed to and will be behind in, but I'm up for the challenge.
It reminds me of one of my favourite quotes:
"Whether or not you think you can, you're right."
Those Picture Frames
The walls are coming down
All around
Like an avalanche of memories
Those pictures flutter down
Off the walls
That crash on the sea-foam beach of dreams
And the only ones who see the damage
For what it is
Are the ones who created it
Through their hateful eyes
Seeing the world crookedly
With red-rimmed glasses
But hate brings on hate
Says one mother to another
Mother of destruction
As the walls fall down
Looks with glee
As lives fall apart
Glee of misery
Only misery feels misery
Those pictures still fluttering
And those memories fading
In the black and white contrasts
As the shaking
And giant boom
Shows the images that once belonged to those scraps
Of life
Love
Love wasn’t enough to save
The walls from falling down
Those cracks in the pavement
That pulls the earth down
Those cracks that open when things change
And things change
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