What?

I like thinking that there is a greater purpose out there for me and all my actions are destined to happen. I like to think that I have no control and what should happen will happen. I live my life with the feeling that it's okay if things go wrong or turn out differently then I'd hoped, because that's the way it was supposed to be. I would hate living through life believing that I have control of everything and if I make a wrong decision it will mess up my life.

However, I hate when I have to wait for OTHERS to decide things for ME. Such as if I'm getting a job or if I get to be part of an organization or if there's still room for me to do something. That time period is the worst. I want to know whether it's yes or no, so I can plan accordingly.

Recent examples would be; the job one as a big one, the norway thing and interchange for CISV, Collectively Canadian, National Camp, so many more. This happens all the time, especially now that I have to apply to things like college. Luckily I didn't have to wait for that to reply. I knew I was going to Douglas in September and was accepted in October with no doubt ever in my mind.