24 Hours

So, the last 24 hours have been intense.
Yesterday I did an Emergency First Aid/CPR course and so am now certified to save people when they are choking/having a heart-attack/are unconscious. But by 'saving' I really mean rushing towards them checking to see if they're breathing and then getting someone to call 9-1-1. Well actually the 9-1-1 thing first. Anyway, I learned something from that, but I can't remember what it was. I was all excited to have a blog so I could tell everyone, but now I forget. My instructor-man was really nice and I was surprised at how easily I was able to fit into the group and talk to people. I used to be shy and I guess now I'm not so much. I took the lead in a lot of things. Apparently First Aid courses have a lot of acting involved ;) I didn't know that was what I was signing up for, but just so you know, there will definitely be acting. Also, the dolls are gross, but at least we didn't have to actually 'kiss' them while we were 'saving' their armless, legless, and kinda freaky lives. Seriously, those dolls were scary.

Things that were awesome about the course:
-It ended an hour early
-The instructor was really funny
-I was a leader in a way [for example the first activity was just to get us warmed up.. just charades and in my group of three I was the one that did all the talking]
-I talked to quite a few people and even walked to the mall for lunch with a group of them and they were friends from before and I was in the middle and talking with them as if we'd all been friends. It was pretty cool, I'm not used to that. Maybe it's because I'm older and so now the programs I'm doing are for younger kids as well, but maybe I'm just more confident.
-I can hopefully now get more jobs, especially in the summer, especially in the camp genre.. but I might need a different type of First Aid training..

ANYWAY, so after that I went to Collectively Canadian.. an AMAZING program! (so far anyway). We went with all our families to a potluck orientation and then most of us slept over in the facility (this amazing YMCA). We just played games and talked and went swimming in the morning, but this group of people are so wonderful and everyone.. well almost everyone.. got along really well. I was so proud of myself today/yesterday/the day before. I just jumped right in to introductions and trying to talk to all these new people and I suggested a WHOLE bunch of activities that we played for the most part. It was really great and I can tell that I'm going to really enjoy this newfound confidence I have in myself. Again, I was one of the older kids.. if not the oldest. But I already have some people who I can DEFINITELY see being friends with. I'm looking forward to getting to know everyone better and it's only been ONE DAY!

Things that were awesome about Collectively Canadian:
-People listened to me
-I talked quite a bit
-So far I like almost everyone
-I already see myself being friends with people
-I led some activities and suggested even more!
-A lot of people's names are hard so mine's almost one of the easiest! :D
-One girl who came into the building right after my family did -- so first I talked to her mom a whole bunch and she was super nice and I got to talk about myself and my life and what I want to do -- but then at the end when we all said what we liked about the day and what was challenging this girl said that the challenging part was getting there, because she didn't know how this would work and what the people would be like, but once she met me I was super friendly and she knew it'd be awesome. I didn't even think I was being super friendly and I thought she seemed a little.. distant. :) So that's awesome.

~ also when we went swimming I went into two floaty things that I normally wouldn't have gone into.. One of which was during a contest so that my group had to push me in the floaty thing to the other end and it was awesome! Often I want to do those things, but let people who are 'smaller' than me do it, because I'm self-conscious about my size, but honestly if I don't care then others won't and even if they do, I won't, so it won't matter anyway.. and I just have to realize that. My low self-esteem regarding my size and my face have stopped me from doing a lot of things in the past that I should have. Including just like speaking up more and stuff, because I didn't want to bring attention to myself and my size. It's a ridiculous thought and I hope no one else feels that way, but I know others do. I just can't help but compare myself to others who are thinner and prettier.. And that's a silly thing to do.


Plus then when I got home I re-switched rooms with my older sister and set up a new desk in the smallest room in the house [which is my bedroom]. So, we'll see how my bedroom turns out- since I'm switching my loft bunk to a regular bed and there is REALLY not that much space in this room.. and the new desk is HUGE. But anyway, I did really well in these last three days.. so let's hope it continues for tomorrow/later today (it's after 12 so this whole post is kind of confusing) for one of my very few job interviews OF MY LIFE! (Cineplex -ScotiaBank Theatre- about an hour from my house). Wish me luck.